Friday, June 10, 2011

That was funny

Remember when I was going to elaborate on all of my Facebook status updates at the end of each week? I forgot.

This week I've been allll upset about Christianity and homosexuality. And I have been looking forward to my birthday, which is tomorrow, but mostly, the gay stuff. These are the topics most people just ignore so they can go on worshiping comfortably, but we all know it's there, don't we, if we dare to look...

I wonder what a "homosexual" way of life was in the first century AD. Were there life partners? Was it associated with prostitution? Goddess worship? Hmm... A bit different today, isn't it.

Stuff to think about and investigate.

But for now, bedtime.

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Happy Birthday, Leta!

The events of Saturday, March 27th 2004

8am-Still pregnant. Breakfast with the family
10am-Waddling through the grocery store for some last minute items with mom.
12:30pm-Lunch with Mom's friend Leah at Monty's, where I downed a mocha and a breakfast burrito. Still pregnant.
2:30pm-Drove by the house I liked and headed over to a photography exhibition.
2:31pm-Looking at photography, listening to hippie music and feeling trouble brewing. Beads of sweat forming on brow.
3:00pm-THERE WAS NO BATHROOM. That's when we went back home.
3:30pm-Announced that we should get ready to go.
3:45pm-I was kneeling on the floor with my upper body on the seat of a rocking chair, breathing and rocking through some very uncomfortable contractions and Jason was looking for a watch.
4:00pm-Contractions were 1 minute long and 5 minutes apart. TIME TO GO, LIKE I SAID... ;)
4:05pm-I remember gripping the door handle through contractions on the way to the hospital and listening to The Cure.
4:30pm-Arrival at St. Mary's
4:45pm-Jason helped me into my gown and they checked my cervix in triage. 5cm.
5:00pm-Checking out the luxurious birthing room with the whirlpool and leather couches.
5:00:10pm-My back was in nonstop agony and I couldn't tell when the contractions began and ended and I did NOT want that stupid heart monitor strapped around my belly...
5:20pm-I tried out the tub. It felt pretty good although the PRESSURE was unbearable.
5:30pm-I couldn't stand the tub. I was overheating and wanted more control/stability during contractions. AND THE PRESSURE!!!
5:45pm-My wonderful fantastic superb sympathetic doctor broke my water--YEAH!!!!! Relief! One of those things people don't think is a good idea but OH EM GEE was it ever a good idea. Oh but wait--she discovered the baby's head was facing wrong direction...I gave a push and she turned it around for me, and VOILA--no more back pain! <3
6:00pm-9cm dilated...
6:15pm-This is when I couldn't seem to hold back my urge to push. I was on all fours and could no longer control my breathing.
6:25pm-Time to push! They said things like "push like you have to poop"--um..."chin down, hold your breath while you push! Relax those legs(this is hard to do...) It's coming"
6:35pm-"that's it! Just like the last one, that was great!" the unmistakable burning sensation now...and I heard them commenting on how much hair was on the baby's head...
6:46pm-Leta's head was born! Yes!
6:47pm-The rest of Leta was born! Jason and I cried tears of joy and incredible relief...
7:00pm-I was rewarded with a bagel and apple juice and it was glorious.

I had no tearing, no stitches...not even enough swelling to warrant the usual frozen diaper treatment.

There were times when I felt guilty about having such easy labors with all the kids but I just have to appreciate it.

Leta was born with black hair, a dimple and hairy little shoulders. She practically came out saying, "OooOOOOooh, that's cuuuuUUUUuute!"

Leta has always been a great company shopping, having lunch, having coffee... And right now she's making it very hard to write this so I guess I better go actually spend time with the birthday girl! Hopefully I will have time to write when the party is over.

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Elaborating on status updates

After some discussion about what facebook has done to journaling, I started to think about what it's done to blogging... Especially after having been so pleased with myself for writing when the girls were younger and being able to go back and enjoy those times through reading. Last night I spent a lot of time converting livejournal entries to XML files. I was really worried because that's five years of almost daily writing that could just go away someday. I do like the sort of ADD quick fix aspect of facebook and twitter. It's instant gratification. You publish your thoughts nearly as they happen. But I was thinking, why don't I just use this as a tool for writing bigger chunks in a journal (or blog)? Facebook can be where I take my notes, and at the end of the week, I can see what I have to write about.

That's what I'm about to do.

I finally finished filling out my FAFSA and submitted it this week. I started it really early on, but I hadn't done my taxes yet, so I didn't have accurate numbers to go on. We finally got our taxes done, so I was able to OH THIS IS SO BORING NEVERMIND.

Mina got new glasses on Thursday. They're bright red and beautiful. I think it's the first wearable item she has ever been excited about, so I may have allowed her to pick unusually expensive frames... Her old glasses were these sort of crappy Shopko glasses... The new ones were handmade in Italy and purchased online at (love) The difference in quality is pretty obvious and Mina says she can actually see a lot better with these. Of course, her prescription is slightly different, and her old glasses were really scratched up I'M BORED WITH THIS TOO.

Wow. It really is hard to do this now. I do not have the attention span to write more than 140 characters. Sad.

In my Drawing for Illustration class we're working on a scratchboard illustration for the Henry Vilas Zoo's 100th birthday, which is also raising money for the proposed Polar Bear exhibit. Several classes are working on it and between you and me, I WANT TO WIN. I MUST WIN. I've never been very competitive, but I think my new career path has roused a sleeping giant.

This week I have also started reading the book of Joshua of Old Testament fame. I'm not quite over the death of Moses yet. Those are big shoes to fill. I'm about ten chapters in and already have lots of questions.

I get the urge to talk about the stuff I'm reading pretty frequently and don't have too many people to talk about it. I don't necessarily always want to talk to super religious people... It's just that I think it's pretty fascinating and I know that there are other friends of mine who have always meant to read the Bible at some point even if just to strengthen their arguments against religion. I just haven't quite figured out how to have theological discussions without making people want to throw up.

I was thinking about posting some of my thoughts and questions about the things I read here, and if anyone felt like reading or engaging, they would be free to step forward.

Last but not least... Tomorrow Leta is turning SEVEN. She's having a few girls from school over for crafts and cupcakes and pizza. I'm excited to revisit her birth story tomorrow. The day before Leta was born I had my 39 week OB visit. I went with my mom, who was sick and thinking about going back home, but Dr. Demopoulos said my cervix was already FOUR cm dilated and I better have my mom stay where she was because she thought I would be having that baby within the next 24 hours. And she was right.

Now look at her. She just rescued the princess on Super Mario Brothers for the DS. They've been playing this game for months and months. This is a proud day for me as a parent. *I* never rescued the princess~

Saturday, January 01, 2011

Goodbye 2010, Hello 2011!

I was going to do a picture post of the year in review, but it was going to be way too many pictures because I just couldn't decide on a few to accurately represent everything.

I know this year has been hard for a lot of people, and many people are hoping 2011 will give them a break from the hardships and tragedies. I hope so too.

For me, this year has been pretty great.

In January, from what I can tell from my pictures, I made some fun hats.
I donated blood for the last time, maybe ever.
The Samsa family suffered a terrible loss unexpectedly.

In February we celebrated our 8th anniversary as Husband and Wife.
I started thinking about life and people and wanting to understand both more, and began to ask a lot of questions about what people believed about life/death and why. This prompted me to email the pastor from the church/school where the girls had gone to preschool, to pick up on a "conversation" we'd started over a year before that kind of started as a heated argument... (long story) Anyway, we went out for coffee and he put up with all of my questions no matter how vicious they were. He put me up to a challenge and ever since, I've been reading the Bible, emailing insane questions and commentary, and occasionally having coffee with the pastor. It's been a big highlight of my year.

In March my little princess Leta turned six. She had a ridiculous cake with a unicorn and a waterfall and a rainbow, and a party with her school friends.
My mom also gave me all of my old dollhouse stuff and I had a blast setting up all the rooms, but discovered that my kids aren't ready to handle my precious, delicate dollhouse furniture so I had to pack it up and put it in the basement so I didn't end up with everything broken.

With April came spring projects and parties and friends with new babies...

I believe my May was all about Cullen's rash and documenting everything he ate every single day. It's still a mystery.

In June I turned 30! I love birthdays. For my birthday we went to Milwaukee and saw Group of the Altos play on a boat. It was so lovely. There were even fireworks. Not for me, but you know, aren't fireworks kind of for everyone? My mom was awesome and babysat the kids so we could spend the night.
There were lots of birthdays and barbecues and a visit from my brilliant sister-in-law Laney (who co-authored a book of poetry that makes me super happy and you should totally check out)... And of course, a visit from "Aunt Laney" wouldn't be complete without a trip to Little Amerricka.

July was the start of dance lessons and swimming lessons for the girls. It was cool to have a little bit of Cullen time again. Summers are hard sometimes, and I feel like I don't appreciate anyone because they're all climbing all over me at the same time...

In August we went to Door County and stayed with my grandparents, who were renting a condo for the month. It was really nice to spend that time with them and I know the kids were just over the moon to be there, and go swimming every day and feed goats and eat ice cream...
At the end of August I started going to school at "Madison College" (MATC) full time for Graphic Design. It's been totally amazing and I love it--it has also been much harder than I expected and I don't have an extra minute for much of anything!

In September the girls were back in school, and fast forward until Christmas because let's face it, not much happened between then and now except for school (and a couple of birthdays)...

OH, a visit from my brother sometime in October I think. That was a treat, to spend the day doing brother/sister bonding--relaxed goofing off and wandering around without any kind of schedule. The girls were in school so it was just us and Cullen. I think Cullen and Shannon bonded, too.

Now, it's a new year, and I'm bored with this and it's taken me too long to write it and I don't know how to wrap it up but I have laundry to do. Hooray for the new year. I have no resolutions. Just going to keep being fabulous (and delusional). :)