Sometimes you find at the end of the day your bucket is empty.
Sometimes you find that your bucket is empty in the middle of the day.
Sometimes you wake up and go, "SHIT! Bucket still empty!"
What if that happens every day?
I have a lot of challenges in my life, and usually I can totally deal with them and I enjoy my life, I like that things are a little crazy, but lately I find that I am waking up and the yelling starts right away, and I can't reset, I can't recharge, I can't think of a good solution, I can't get to the bottom of things, I am just having a really hard time. I feel tense all the time, I'm not keeping things up as well around the house, I don't want anyone touching me, I'm totally crabby and I can't seem to shake it.
I know. Boo hoo. My life is awesome and I have nothing to complain about. God I am so annoyed with myself now. It's such a vicious cycle.
I just wanted to admit for the billionth time to the entire world that I sometimes get under a cloud and can't seem to get out, and I really do try, and I'm the worst kind of depressed person because I hate other depressed people and think they are whiny and need to get some real problems. Awful!