Friday, February 25, 2005

Well, I DID tell her to make it choppy...

My hair still kind of looks like I cut it myself. (Does everything have to be about your hair, Hilary?) Yes, yes it does. What else is there?

Thursday, February 24, 2005

First, Something REALLY Big...

This morning the girls and I were in their bedroom...I was putting clothes away, and they were running/crawling around in their usual excited state. Then, I turned around to look at them and witnessed a miracle. I saw Mina crawl on top of Leta and was getting ready to do some scolding, but Leta was chuckling, and Mina layed her head down on Leta's back and said, (ARE YOU READY FOR THIS?) "I love you, Tee-ta."

Oh. My. God. Talk about pulling the old heartstrings. I just couldn't believe it. It was totally unprovoked.

Now, something big but not as big as the last big thing: Yesterday I applied for nursing school for the spring semester of 2006. That's just a year away! I'm on my way to becoming a WAGE EARNER. That's right, folks. Three or four years from now, we could be a TWO INCOME FAMILY, the kind that can almost afford a house! For now, I'm just excited about school. My chemistry class is three times per week and I must say, I really get a lot out of that time away from my wonderful, precious girls. Yes, going to a CHEMISTRY class is a lovely break for me. After class, of course, I can't wait to see them and chat with Jana.

My point, I guess, is that right now I'm really happy with being a "SAHM" and a student. I have to say that again, because I think it's pretty rare that anyone is ever happy Right Now. I feel balanced...and I must enjoy these moments. It could be the cold medicine I'm taking, but I like to think that things are really that warm and fuzzy in my life...

Monday, February 21, 2005


haircut!!! Posted by Hello

Tuesday, February 15, 2005


Happy Anniversary Posted by Hello

Three Crazy Years...

Three years ago today, Jason and I closed our eyes, held our breaths and jumped blindly into the abyss of holy matrimony...armed with love, hope, determination, and a little bit of YEEEE-HAW!...so far I think we've beaten the odds. We knew, three years ago, that we were in love with each other. We were in love with the family we were making. We were at a point where the pure, raw, naked truth of it all was not only appealing but breathtaking. Life's imperfections would be handled with love, as a team.

In the last three years we had our first child, changed jobs, moved to a new town, a new apartment, sold a house, had a second child... We've gained weight and lost weight, suffered illnesses, brought children to the E.R., taken classes, made countless decisions together about how to manage our family, our finances, our futures...

We've bickered and discussed and yelled and laughed and cried together, we've had hard times and ugly times and we just keep learning...because if you want, you can get something wonderful out of everything. That's what we do, that's what we'll keep doing.

When Jason comes home from work, I feel relieved...every day. A hug from Jason is a sure cure for any horrible, stressed out, depressive state I manage to work myself into. He relaxes me. I think I couldn't possibly love him more, and then I see him snuggling on the couch with Mina or teaching Leta to walk...

Here's to you, Jason, my best friend. I love you.

Friday, February 11, 2005


Mina's work is really coming a long way... Posted by Hello

Wednesday, February 09, 2005


And reading, we have been reading A LOT...in the bathroom... Posted by Hello

My life is so full of stickers. Notice the two frowns on Tuesday...guess what that means... Posted by Hello

Sunday, February 06, 2005

Fun things to do in Wisconsin

On Saturday we went to Madison's annual Kites on Ice festival at the Union on Lake Mendota. Thousands of people came to share this time-old tradition of gathering on an ice covered lake in the middle of winter to fly kites. This year it was a balmy 50 degrees! How crazy is it to walk around on an ice covered lake in 50 degree weather? How about snowboarding on an ice covered lake with a giant kite? It seemed like a lot of fun to us. We didn't actually go out on the ice, as we have a behemoth double stroller to push around and I kept thinking about the time at the cottage when we all stood in front of the fireplace for the Christmas photo and the floor joist collapsed beneath our feet. So many people in one spot just seemed a little too risky...

We certainly had a lovely afternoon out and about, though. This winter has been particularly depressing for me as a "Stay at home mom". Last year we only had one and it was still pretty easy to get out and do things with her. I made sure to leave the house every day and maintained pretty good spirits...but this year, with two little ones, a trip to Target is just a little too complicated and painful to want to go for no good reason. The likelihood that both tots will be in good spirits is slim, and the cold wind chapping their little faces makes it worse, and even worse than that are the total strangers who can't mind their business, going on and on about my poor children who should never ever leave the house in the winter and should be covered from head to toe in fleece 9 months of the year...

Was I going somewhere with that? I can't remember...

I'm looking forward to spring more than usual this year and I have crazy ideas in my head about going for walks every single day, being more active, getting in shape...etc. Who's with me??? Let's show some solidarity! C'mon!

Kites on Ice! Posted by Hello

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

Life is Good...

I found an entry in my livejournal archives that I like to re-read now and then, so I thought I would post it here...this if from when I was pregnant with Leta.


Coffee is amazing.
Normally I am pretty useless in the morning. I lay around, watching Mina play, not feeling well, occasionally and unenthusiastically reading books to my ever absorbant daughter. I'm not the best parent I can be until after naptime, usually. If I have any thoughts at all they are usually sort of grey and sludgy. Just a little honesty to start off this entry...

This morning I had some deliciously crappy instant swiss mocha and have transformed as a person several times since 8 AM.

I woke up annoyed because Jason had to take the Saab to work for some reason.
I had my morning planned out--I was going to balance the virtual checkbook, shower and dress before I even got Mina up. Then we were going to have breakfast and go grocery shopping, which we desperately need to do since we have no milk or any other beverages and almost no food. We have Mac&cheese which I can just make with lots of butter I guess. Oh yum. :/ Anyway...since Jason took the car with the carseat I can't do that. I don't know about anyone else, but I get grumpy when I get a certain idea in my head of how my day is going to go and it doesn't happen that way.

So there I was, sipping my instant swiss mocha feeling all crabby when this program on pbs came on about different ways people live and carry on traditions and things. There was a woman and three kids living in a shelter. Yeah I see stuff like this all the time. I'm aware that anyone can become homeless. But I guess I still get the idea in my head that people control their own destiny and all that...so it struck me that this woman was a lot like me. I don't know how she ended up in the shelter but they carried on...the kids did chores, they made the best of it. Maybe she had no family, maybe they were really poor, maybe they lived on the other side of the planet, maybe she didn't want to burden them...maybe her husband got layed off, they could no longer pay for life insurance, and he died. Who the hell knows.

Anyway, I took a look around me...we have a roof over our heads. We have two cars. We have swiss mocha and mac&cheese. We have families who would help us if we didn't. Everything we need is right here, and when something isn't terribly convenient we get bent out of shape. It made me cry, to say the least.

So, instead of being a crab-ass all day I'm going to do stuff around the house and be thankful that we have a house, and that my husband has a job, and that he has a car to get there, and money to pick up milk on the way home.

Thank you, swiss mocha, for keeping me awake enough to watch pbs this morning. :)



Tuesday, February 01, 2005

The Weekend from H-E-double hockey sticks!

We're finally getting over this respiratory demon-virus-flu-infection or whatever it is that has plagued the Samsa household. I can't believe Jason was sick with this all last week and worked so late every single night. He worked on Saturday, too, and Mina, Leta and I were all sick with fevers and chills. I haven't felt like that since I was a little kid. Not even when I had Bronchitis a few years ago. Isn't having a fever the worst? I mean, really, every other symptom is still there, but now that my body temperature is under control I feel like a million bucks. I think Mina and Leta agree with me.

Hopefully in a few days I'll be back to normal and will have collected some colorful observations about people/life to share with my massive audience (hi, Mom!).

Until then, *coughcoughHACKwheeze* unnngh.

"You can use this tool to break out of there!" Posted by Hello